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Psilocybin Mushrooms for Psychological Growth – My Story

psilocybin mushrooms
in this article
  • Introduction
  • Why?
  • Research
  • My Mushroom Experience
  • Conclusion

Disclaimer: The views and opinions expressed in this article are those of the authors and do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of Chemical Collective or any associated parties.


For as long as I can remember I have had an interest in the inner workings of the human brain, mainly, I think, due to the fact I often struggle with my mental health. For years my mind felt fragmented and at war with itself. I needed to make a change, but I didn’t know how. This article details how my discovery of psilocybin mushrooms helped me to change my mind, and change my life.


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In therapy I had learned that parts of my mind were shut off as a result of childhood trauma and abuse. Though I ‘knew’ this, I wasn’t willing, or ready to truly face it.  Other, equally inaccessible parts of me were full of anger and continually undermined my thoughts and actions. Simply put, I was very unhappy.

Though I do not deny the life-changing benefits which many people experience from the usage of medication to combat their struggles, I have never been interested in taking pharmaceuticals. I explored hypnotherapy and psychotherapy but neither helped me to truly unburden myself. I turned to meditation, which was more positive. With practice I found that I could leave my body and be free for a while. The release was intoxicating. I spent more and more time in that state and hated returning to normality. It reached a point where I was spending up to 7 hours a day meditating. I knew I was trying to outrun myself but I couldn’t accept it.

Slowly I began to experience a kind of awakening.

In the meditative state I could see my mind, my internal tormentors, parts of me that were hurt and shut down, buried too deep. I could see it all with clarity, but no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t reach them. I needed something more. 

This is when I began to consider experimenting with psilocybin mushrooms.


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Prior to my ‘awakening’ I would have been far too worried to take any psychedelic for fear of a negative experience. Yet, in my new state of awareness I was instinctively ready to dive in. But not without prior preparation. I spent many hours researching others’ experiences and looking into the science. I was quickly reassured that mushrooms were very unlikely to put me at risk physically. The amount I would have to ingest to cause any major problems was huge.

Below is a quick summary of some of the information I reviewed when making my decision to explore psilocybin mushrooms:

The Active Compound

The active compound in magic mushrooms is psilocybin. Psilocybin is a psychedelic compound that, when ingested, is converted into psilocin in the body. Psilocin is the main chemical responsible for the hallucinogenic effects of the substance.

Cultural and Ritualistic Use

Magic mushrooms have a long history of use in various cultural and religious practices. Indigenous peoples in different parts of the world have incorporated magic mushrooms into their rituals. 

Psychotherapy and scientific research

Psilocybin mushrooms have gained increasing attention in scientific research due to their potential therapeutic effects. Psilocybin-assisted psychotherapy is being investigated for its potential in treating various mental health conditions, including depression, anxiety, and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). A number of ongoing clinical trials are exploring the use of psilocybin in conjunction with psychotherapy sessions to enhance therapeutic outcomes.

Psilocybin is being extensively studied to better understand its effects on brain function and how it may influence consciousness. Functional brain imaging studies have provided insights into the neural mechanisms involved in psychedelic experiences.

End-of-Life Anxiety

Studies have shown that psilocybin may help individuals facing life-threatening illnesses, such as cancer, cope with end-of-life anxiety and improve their overall quality of life. 

Treatment-Resistant Depression

Some research suggests that psilocybin may be effective in treating individuals with treatment-resistant depression, offering a potential alternative for those who do not respond well to traditional antidepressant medications.

Addiction Treatment

Preliminary studies have explored the use of psilocybin in the treatment of substance use disorders, such as alcohol and tobacco addiction. It is believed that the psychedelic experience may help individuals gain insights into their behaviours and patterns, potentially aiding in addiction recovery.


While their acceptance is spreading, Psilocybin Mushrooms are still illegal in many countries. In the United States, for example, the Controlled Substances Act of 1970 defines them as Schedule I. Since 2019, however, many states have decriminalised their use. It seems that in most of Europe the Mushrooms are still classed as illegal, but you are unlikely to have issues if caught with them for personal use.

Personally, illegality didn’t worry me. In my opinion psychedelics belong to humanity. No government should have the right to tell us that we can’t help ourselves with nature’s medicines. I personally trust nature far more than I do Pharmaceutical companies.

My research not only reassured me of the likely safety of mushrooms, but also further piqued my curiosity. The seemingly extensive data on their effectiveness in assisting with difficulties such as my own, the countless glowing anecdotal reports. Honestly, I was excited.

My Mushroom Experience

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Something inside me felt locked up, hidden in the untouched corners where meditation couldn’t reach, no matter how long and hard I tried. Unveiling it promised to be a rocky road, but I knew my growth depended on facing the unknown head-on. In the words of Carl Jung:

One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light but by making the darkness conscious.

I purchased a mushroom grow kit and chose the Golden Teacher strain – it seemed logical as I was hoping for an educational experience. The instructions were simple and two weeks later I had a healthy batch of mushrooms. I particularly valued this aspect of the process, growing the plant medicine I intended to ingest. It felt right that I should be the one to nurture them, knowing that they were going to heal something hidden within me.

By now my excitement far outweighed any lingering trepidation. Perhaps somewhat inadvisably I decided on 50 grams of fresh mushrooms for my first dose. This was the so-called ‘heroic dose’ popularised by figures such as Terence McKenna.

Oddly, my measuring automatically stopped at 45 grams, I can’t explain why, just a gut feeling. Perhaps it simply looked like an awful lot. I blended the mushrooms with lemon juice (lemon-tek). It’s said that the citric acid in the lemons speeds up the process of converting the psilocybin to psilocin and keeps nausea at bay.

After fasting for 24 hrs I downed the potion at around 2 pm, creating a safe, cosy space with soft lights, a snug bed, water, snacks, and music.

I began on the balcony, enjoying the trees and the blue sky. A little jittery now, I sought guidance, asking the mushrooms to open me up to this uncharted territory. After about twenty minutes, I noticed the first signs. Colours began to dance around me, reminding me of the postcards my grandparents sent from Spain in the ’70s. Everything became very bright and saturated. When I closed my eyes, my mind was awash with geometric shapes. I looked at a flower, and I became the flower, sun-soaked with soft yellow petals. A feeling of unity with all things enveloped me. I have never before felt such a profound connection to life. I loved how the trees and plants were reaching for the sun. The beauty of the world brought me to tears. When I saw my cat, she looked like she had popped out of a Pixar movie. A magical hour melted away. But, then I remembered why I was in this unusual headspace.

I tore myself away from the beauty and headed to my designated room. It was time to lay down in the dark and surrender to the experience. It quickly became what can only be described as: very trippy.

Buddhas on my wall started to slither towards me like grey snakes with Buddha faces.

The room played with shapes; nothing looked the same. Looking into the mirror, my face morphed into different people – old, young, friendly, demonic, loving. It was fascinating. I had been told not to look in a mirror but I felt an overwhelming urge to do so. I saw all of humanity. The good, the bad. I understood how we all contain all things. I saw how each has its opposite. No wonder we battle our inner selves so much when there are so many beings within.

Then it came, the thing I had not been able to reach. The unveiling of that shadowy, hidden beast. It floated towards me from across the room like a cloud. I knew what it was and was overtaken by anxiety because the part of me that could normally push it away was in no state to push anything anywhere. I was defenceless. I was back in my childhood, in that dark, bone-chilling inner space I visited at twelve. The abuse I suffered, and the resulting inner torment made me dissociate, landing me in a bizarre alternate reality.

At the time, it had terrified me, and I had learned to block it out, locking it and that child away in the depths of my mind. I felt the fear of this place disperse as I inhabited it in the present.

A breakthrough!

The thing that scared me the most, the thing I couldn’t wrap my head around was all laid bare. I cried as that child and I cried for that child, as the adult I had become. That defenceless young girl was brought out of the hellish place she had been lost in and back into the fold. Reunited and safe. In a strange way she was external, whilst simultaneously a part of me.

I was able to love her how she should have been loved.

Over the next several hours there were too many different experiences to describe. They all opened doors in my mind and revealed how open and free it can feel without the conditionings of day-to-day life.

Once the effects started to become less intense I was able to relax and put on some music. That was also a magical experience. I chose a live recording of my best loved band ‘Counting Crows’. I was everything at once. I could move from person to person and feel what they were feeling. It was the best concert of my life.

Time didn’t seem to exist, and when I finally came back to myself I was surprised to discover that 10 hours had passed since the experience began.


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Psilocybin mushrooms were nothing short of a breakthrough for me, allowing me to face emotions I had hidden from, and helping me to bring back together the broken pieces of my psyche. I found that a lot of this insight came in the following days when back in my normal headstate. During the trip, everything is obviously a bit weird and surreal. It is reflection after the fact that brings clarity. I spent many hours over the next few days just digesting and recalibrating myself, allowing what I had learned to settle in.

I would recommend this experience wholeheartedly.

All you need is an open mind and the willingness to lay yourself bare and accept what comes.

Debra Wilkinson | Community Blogger at Chemical Collective

Debra is one of our community bloggers here at Chemical Collective. If you’re interested in joining our blogging team and getting paid to write about subjects you’re passionate about, please reach out to David via email at: blog@chemical-collective.com

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Brilliant read, very informative with a lovely personal touch. I love the writers way of expression.

13 days ago

What a fascinating read! I loved reading about your personal experiences, resonated a lot with some mine. Great article!

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Very interesting and informative.

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